My plate is full

And I needed to come here.

Brian and I are getting a divorce.  We finalized that decision last night.  It was ultimately my decision and there's a lot of factors that play into it.  I know deep down inside it is the right decision.  I was at peace with it when I made that decision Friday night (yes.....two days prior to us discussing it) but it still hurts like hell.

Going to my parents house for a one night stay tonight to just be.  Was told by my mother that things are not going well with my brother.  He was arrested over the weekend.  Things have calmed down, but he's a lose cannon so who the hell knows.

I am completely and utterly overwhelmed at times.  There are minutes I'm ok and minutes I'm a crying mess.

I did go to the gym, and must admit, it felt good.  Although my weight training appt I did have trouble keeping up with.

So....bear with me as I'm probably emotionally all over the place for a little while, and thank you for being such a wonderful group of people I can come to with anything and everything.

Probably gonna need some help at some point.....

P

Pam,

I'm so sorry.  I know you've agonized over this decision for a long time, but I feel like you know your heart and you know what you need and DESERVE.  Being at peace with something doesn't mean that it won't hurt. 

Hugs and love to you - CALL ME when you get a chance.

Karen

Pam,
Oh hunny I am sooo sorry I am going ot PM you my personal info but wanted to post how beautiful and wonderful person you are. I know this is a tough time for you and I will allow you the privacy you need  and the time you need with your immediate family to wrap your mind around this whole mess but know that you are loved and I will be there for you if you need me. Love you Pam and lots of hugs coming your way

Big hugs to you, Pam - this had to be an angonizing decision to come to, but you know what is best for you (and Brian). You know we will always be here for you for strength, comfort, encouragement and whatever else you need during this difficult time.

Sending many prayers and hugs your way to stay strong. Fondly, Kathy

Yes, its a tough decision, you will always have thoughts of this decision, but ultimately your head was on straight when you made the decision.  If you need anything, just ask.

Love you,

NAN

Pam,

Sorry to hear this news, it does suck but you (and Brian) will be OK with time.

Reach out for help when you need it and your friends will be there on the spot.

Best,
T

This is a big decision and a painful one. It is ok to hurt. It is ok to cry. The worst thing you can do is deny your feelings and not allow them. Good luck and call me. Love ya

Pam,

I cannot imagine what you are going through, but know that I am here for you! You came to the right place, to your friends and support system. Sounds like your plate is overflowing with so much crap, no wonder you are an emotional roller coaster!!  I know we are not close friends but you seem like a genuinely good person and I like spending time with you at cooking classes or support at Barix.

I would say keep up with the gym, it is a good outlet for your feelings, plus it pumps up those endorphins!! I went on the treadmill on Saturday and it did feel good!! Just have to make it a point to do it a little bit more....

Just know in time you will heal and you will be in a better emotional place!

((HUGS))
Beth

Pam.. I know this was a long time coming.  I feel for you and am here for you if you need to cry, vent, ***** moan.. whatever..

I hope things work out the way you want them to and this goes as smoothly as possible.

Hope things with your bro calm down, too.  I know that you don't need that extra stress right now.

HUGS

Take time for yourself, more now than ever.  Grieve the loss even if you know it is for the best in the long run.    Know that you have many friends and acquaintenances here that will be there to help when you need us.

Lisa Mc